Trials of a Long Haired Girl

So I was watching CSI: Cyber episode called “URL, Interrupted” which is about a girl being cyberbullied and Peter MacNicol’s character (Simon Sifter) was talking to his son about participating in cyberbulling.  His character said “Your words hurt this girl.  Words have consequences.”  Honestly, this statement could not be truer.  These are not just the words that we say to others, but the words (or thoughts) that we say to ourselves.  Negative self talk is not a good thing for any of us.  I have really been trying to focus on changing my mindset, but it isn’t always easy.  Sometimes those thoughts pop in your head out of habit.  Once those words (or thoughts) pop out, you can’t take them back.  I remember hearing when my oldest child was little to “be careful because little ears hear what you say”.  Those seemingly innocent thoughts like when my leader announced the loss for the group last night and the thought that popped in was “I didn’t contribute to that total” and I had to stop m

So, honestly, I have been feeling like I am headed in the wrong direction.  I haven’t been eating quite like I need to everyday and I haven’t been working out.  After probably an hour or more of holding our Bichon Frise to get him trimmed or helping trim him, I got up this morning to an aching body.  My wrists, elbows, knees and hips hurt.  I was being reminded that my health is important and I need to take care of me too.  I have really started trying to rely on essential oils for my pain relief rather than Tylenol, Ibuprofen, etc.  So today, I am trying Wintergreen.  Although it says to mix it with fractionated coconut oil for larger areas, I put it directly on.  It was a weird sensation, but it seems to have helped with the pain.  As you may be aware, I have decided to focus on real food.  For purposes of Weight Watchers, I am using mostly the Power Foods list.  However, I am not eating fat free or low fat anything.  I cook with butter and I use whole milk.  I find that it is m

I have had much on my mind of late.  I have been having a hard time focusing on making myself a priority and taking care of myself.  I took a break from pretty much everything.  I didn’t meal plan, I missed multiple Weight Watchers meetings, I didn’t post on online forums.  I think I felt like a fraud.  I have been starting threads and trying to be positive about my weight loss efforts, but I felt like a hamster on a wheel.  My weight has just fluctuated up and down and I am pretty much losing and gaining the same 10 pounds or so.  I made some changes that a lot of people are probably going to disagree with, but it makes sense to me.  When I was a small child (i.e. when I was still very thin), I ate whole fat foods, I drank whole milk, I wasn’t focused on eating “diet” everything.  So that’s what I am going back to.  I am focusing on feeding my family unprocessed foods.  I am making snacks for them to take in their lunch boxes so it isn’t filled with all the processed foods. Now t

So a friend posted today in one of the Facebook groups that we are in together that she is frustrated by her ability to lose because she is sabotaging herself.  This spoke volumes to me because I do the same thing.  I have been for quite some time.  I am determined to make changes for myself.  It is not always easy when you have had a love/hate relationship with yourself and your body to love the woman that you see in the mirror.  Another friend (thanks Nancy) reminded me how important that this is.  I will be the first to tell you that I have not always loved or appreciated this body that the Father gave me.  Truth be told, I have had a hard time on more than one occasion remembering that it is the only body that I have and I need to take care of it. Here is the long and short of it.  If I want my body to change and I want to learn to love the woman in the mirror, I have to start making that change for myself.    So, I thought, I should just start today.  What better day right?